Panic Mode

PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!

Firsts

Riding in a car with a guy alone is new to me. You're the first guy friend, not related to me, I rode a car with ALONE. And yes, that's a big deal to me. It's something new and it is something that makes me a bit uncomfortable, but because I've been in the car with you a lot of times already, I'm getting much more comfortable with you. :) Hindi naman sa di pa ko nakakasakay ng kotse or anything, pero kasi ikaw pa lang yung guy na nakasama ko sa kotse na tayong dalawa lang. hahaha Kasi naman, parang wala yata akong guy friend na nagddrive. You're the first, I guess. :)

Ikaw rin yung unang guy na nakita ko yung bahay. Yung tipong, nakatira lang mag-isa. Super independent mo ne? Makalunus ing bale mu, nang karnat. Buri kong linasan ing sala. Buri kong ayusan ing gamit mu. Very obvious na lalaki ing magstay keta. Ali kaya mimwa ing ima mu nung ikit na ing bale mu? hahaha Kung ali ko lang marine, lininis ku ne ing sala mu! Makalunus ing bale mu. haha Unang guy na napuntahan ko ang bahay, yung di nakatira sa parents. Hmmm...

* My first try in constructing a Kapampangan sentence. YES!!! I know I still have lots of firsts with you. Hahaha I just forgot. Probably I have other firsts with you, JK! Oh well, I guess that's something to look forward to. :D Dana! Nang kalantung! :)) Bakit makanini? Pamusitan da ku pa mo. Mamurit ko na yata! hahaha

2011, please let me this happy. :D

Dear Boy,

Thank you for being so understanding and for being really nice. :) Awww!!! Sana pag nagkaroon ako ng boyfriend, kagaya niya ikaw. :D Sa'yo ko na tuloy binase ang standards ko. OMG! I'm not in love with you!!! </3

I can just look up and know that the stars are holding you tonight

A line from FM Static's song Tonight. I'm feeling a little emo today so I'm listening to this song. That's my favorite line in that song. It's full of meaning. Just that line speaks of a lot of things.

Stalking is bad! Thou shall stop stalking, or shit will happen. Ugh! I can't get over what happened to her. I seriously, seriously feel bad for her and her family. Gosh! My prayers go to her. :|



Listening to: Tonight - FM Static

Word Vomit

Everyone's been telling me that this guy likes me. In all honesty, I know and I can feel that he doesn't like me. If my cousin reads this, I'm pretty sure that she would tell me that I'm just convincing myself. This guy's just naturally nice to people. When we're together, I see him talking to almost everyone and he's like helping almost everyone. I don't want to give meaning to how he treats me. I'm so tired of assuming things and I always end up being disappointed. I don't wanna be disappointed. I don't want to think of it. As amazing as how things are going right now, I can feel that it wouldn't be going anywhere. This is just too good to be true. We're friends and we'll remain that way.

Should this be my life philosophy?

Everything happens for a reason. People change so you learn to let go. Things go wrong so you appreciate when things are right. You hear lies to learn to trust yourself. And good things fall apart so that better things can fall into place.

—(via poeticheartache)