A Loser's Dream

I dream of becoming a good writer in the future... I don't dream of being famous... My goal is just to be a good slash sensible slash funny writer... Do you get what I say? Huh?! I dream of being as good as William Shakespeare... Duh! As if I can... Just dream on... Ahehe... Or if not probably as good as Amy Erhlich or even J.K Rowling... Frankly speaking I am a dreamer... I dream of lots of things. I dream of things that are very impossible. I love being confined in my room, rolling in the bed and trying to dream that I am like this and like that. I am an idealistic. A mere dreamer. I live in my own world. In my world everyone loves me. In my world nobody hates me. In my world I am perfect! In my world I am not loser! And in my world I am the best. You see I am an illusionist! But its fun actually... Try it if you like too and you'll know what I mean! :D I'm a loser as you can see. A loser in everything I do. I haven't proved anything yet. And frankly speaking right now, I am trying to prove something to other people. Especially to those people who doesn't believe in me. Like... Better not mention them or else I'll be in a very big trouble. Yeah right! I'm out to prove them something. And I'm out to make them eat what they've said! Hahaha... Is that right... I seldom tell other people what's on my mind. I don't tell people everything. Well, somewhat yeah. But this past few months I try to shut up my mouth and not tell anybody what I think or even what I feel. I am too pretentious. I hate opening up what I feel because some people's reaction are too painful to bear! People look at other people's flaws but they are not thinking that they also have flaws. Call me a narcissist/self-centered/egotistical/vain I don't care. I mean... I am not the only person who feels this way. Think about other people. I am lonely but nobody cares. I am loud, now everybody cares. I am happy but nobody cares. I am crying and sad and now everybody cares. I am a LOSER and everybody cares! They laugh at me! They hate me! They make fun of me!



"Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow." --Romeo and Juliet ]
}(William Shakespeare)
"Some Cupid kills with arrows, some with traps." --From Much Ado About Nothing