Panic Mode

PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
PANIC MODE!!!
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PANIC MODE!!!

Firsts

Riding in a car with a guy alone is new to me. You're the first guy friend, not related to me, I rode a car with ALONE. And yes, that's a big deal to me. It's something new and it is something that makes me a bit uncomfortable, but because I've been in the car with you a lot of times already, I'm getting much more comfortable with you. :) Hindi naman sa di pa ko nakakasakay ng kotse or anything, pero kasi ikaw pa lang yung guy na nakasama ko sa kotse na tayong dalawa lang. hahaha Kasi naman, parang wala yata akong guy friend na nagddrive. You're the first, I guess. :)

Ikaw rin yung unang guy na nakita ko yung bahay. Yung tipong, nakatira lang mag-isa. Super independent mo ne? Makalunus ing bale mu, nang karnat. Buri kong linasan ing sala. Buri kong ayusan ing gamit mu. Very obvious na lalaki ing magstay keta. Ali kaya mimwa ing ima mu nung ikit na ing bale mu? hahaha Kung ali ko lang marine, lininis ku ne ing sala mu! Makalunus ing bale mu. haha Unang guy na napuntahan ko ang bahay, yung di nakatira sa parents. Hmmm...

* My first try in constructing a Kapampangan sentence. YES!!! I know I still have lots of firsts with you. Hahaha I just forgot. Probably I have other firsts with you, JK! Oh well, I guess that's something to look forward to. :D Dana! Nang kalantung! :)) Bakit makanini? Pamusitan da ku pa mo. Mamurit ko na yata! hahaha

2011, please let me this happy. :D

Dear Boy,

Thank you for being so understanding and for being really nice. :) Awww!!! Sana pag nagkaroon ako ng boyfriend, kagaya niya ikaw. :D Sa'yo ko na tuloy binase ang standards ko. OMG! I'm not in love with you!!! </3

I can just look up and know that the stars are holding you tonight

A line from FM Static's song Tonight. I'm feeling a little emo today so I'm listening to this song. That's my favorite line in that song. It's full of meaning. Just that line speaks of a lot of things.

Stalking is bad! Thou shall stop stalking, or shit will happen. Ugh! I can't get over what happened to her. I seriously, seriously feel bad for her and her family. Gosh! My prayers go to her. :|



Listening to: Tonight - FM Static

Word Vomit

Everyone's been telling me that this guy likes me. In all honesty, I know and I can feel that he doesn't like me. If my cousin reads this, I'm pretty sure that she would tell me that I'm just convincing myself. This guy's just naturally nice to people. When we're together, I see him talking to almost everyone and he's like helping almost everyone. I don't want to give meaning to how he treats me. I'm so tired of assuming things and I always end up being disappointed. I don't wanna be disappointed. I don't want to think of it. As amazing as how things are going right now, I can feel that it wouldn't be going anywhere. This is just too good to be true. We're friends and we'll remain that way.

Should this be my life philosophy?

Everything happens for a reason. People change so you learn to let go. Things go wrong so you appreciate when things are right. You hear lies to learn to trust yourself. And good things fall apart so that better things can fall into place.

—(via poeticheartache)

I just realized something

Bakit ganun? Kahapon sinabi ko sa'yo, "Narealize ko na hindi na lang ako bibili ng iPhone. Kung kaya kong kumita nang ganun kalaki, pangdown na lang ng kotse yun."
Tas sabi mo, "Oo, wag ka nang bumili ng cell phone. Yung mura na lang bilhin mo. Dati ako nagpapalit ng cell phone every two months, tas narealize ko bat di ko na lang inipon."
So sabi ko naman, "Weh? Seryoso?"
Ikaw, "Oo. Bata pa kasi ako nun. Yun na lang kotse, mas okay yun. Hassle kaya magcommute. Pag-ipunan natin yun."

Wait! Mag-iipon ka rin for me? hahaha Talagang kailangang natin? Alam ko di naman masama yung sinasabi mo, kasi alam ko namang ikaw yung makakatulong sa akin, pero natatawa lang talaga ako.

Kanina na naman, tinanong mo kamusta yung interview ko. Sabi ko di interview yung pinuntahan. Nagulat na naman ako nung nabasa ko yung reply mo, "Pagdasal natin." Natin? hahahaha

Alam ko napakasenseless nito, pero oh well. hahaha

Salamat dahil napaka-concerned mo sa akin. Salamat din sa pep talk mo sa akin. Everyday yata nagppep talk ka. Oo na! Ililibre na kita pag may work na ko. hahahaha Thank you rin sa panlilibre mo sa akin at sa pagpapasabay mo sa akin sa kotse mo.

Damn Bitch

I've been saying this line since last night and this is because of one person, which I call "Coach". If someone hears me say this, I know that they would think of me badly, but I just can't help it. Whenever I say this line, his voice rings in my head. I can imagine him saying this and I picture myself laughing at him. It's really the way he says it that makes me laugh. Instead of seeing it as a curse, I see it as a joke. And now I can picture him in my head saying this while laughing at our friend, BAD!!! Oh-oh! Damn bitch! hahahaha

Coach

For the past three weeks, I have been hanging out with the same people almost everyday. It's not really that bad, I mean I enjoy their company and I am learning a lot from them. There's this one guy I'm really close to. We're close because he's like a mentor to me, well, I think he's really my mentor. hahaha He's been really really nice since day 1. When we started hanging out he would always introduce me to people and stuff. He's been really nice to me. I am not giving any meaning to our closeness, because as I have said earlier, he's my "mentor" and not to mention, he's like the kuya I never had. I've been hanging out with him almost everyday, like this week, we have been "hanging out" since Sunday. Wow! The last time something like this happened was when I was doing thesis. Anyway, he's been really nice and I think I am telling him too much. I am getting so comfortable with him, that I tell him the most unnecessary stuff. I seriously want to hit myself for telling him some stupid things. I am probably starting to look stupid in his eyes. Yuck! hahaha Because I am hanging out with him almost everyday, I'm telling him more stuff than my friends. (I'm so sorry friends!) At first I was really uptight around him, but we are much closer now (I guess) that I can joke around him. I also tease him a bit. hahaha I really enjoy hanging out with him and seriously whenever we hang out we have this mini pep talk. He would always tell, "Kaya mo yan. Wag mong masyadong isipin yun, ganun talaga. Lupit mo nga e!" Then he would tell me how he's like before, "Ganyan din ako dati. Syempre alam kong di ako magaling, so kailangan kong sipagan." He's super duper hardworking! Another thing that's really nice about him is that he is really supportive. I had a job interview earlier, and he told me that, "Sana makuha mo na yung trabaho para matuwa na mommy mo." Yes! He knows that my mom has been pressuring me to look for a job. :(

He's nice but he's also crazy. At first I thought that he doesn't curse, but lately, he has been swearing more than ever. And I think his favorite is "Anakngpusanggala." hahaha Whenever he's swearing, I somewhat end up laughing at him, secretly. :)) Oh, another one of his favorite is, "Damn bitch!" This never fails to make me laugh. There's something with the way he says it that makes me laugh.

He's from Pampanga. Random!

So earlier, we had to meet a couple of people. But then I had an interview in the morning, so I wasn't able to go with him. He was around Taft and he called me. I missed his call, so I texted him asking where he was. And then he asked where I was. Then he called me again, but like earlier, I missed it. So I was cursing myself for missing it again. When I was about to get off the train, he called. And I did not miss it, yey me! I told him that I'm getting off of the train, so he said that he'll wait for me. We had to walk to his car, which is parked in far far away land. It's so far no! But at least he didn't have to pay for parking. This is the second time I rode his car, the first one was last Tuesday. He's a good driver, but he's (sort of) reckless. He drives really fast, not that I mind, but sometimes it's scary.

Do what makes you happy

Fuck society. Fuck normality. Get piercings. Get tattoos. Do drugs. Get high. Drink ‘till you pass out. Have sex. Love with all your heart. Play the music loud. Live your fucking life. Fuck what people expect of you. Do what makes you happy.

Source: Daniel Maitland Kills Zombies

Missues

This is a post from my Wordpress blog. Posted last November 4. :)

I have some confidence issues and I’ve known it since I was old enough to spell the word confidence. I think my problem is my lack of trust in my own self. In this dog-eat-dog world, having enough confidence to back up what you have is probably the best thing to have, next to having a college degree. Yes, I have a college degree that I can brag about, but I don’t have ENOUGH self confidence to brag about it. I don’t think it’s something worth bragging for since other people also have college degrees and plus they have better majors than me. See what I’m talking about, I’m putting my self down, in my very own blog, isn’t that exciting? I have this terrible habit of putting myself down, I know it  is a bad idea. A bad, bad idea. I have MISSUES, a term me and my friend came up with while talking about certain issues we have. Thus we came up with the term missues which means ME ISSUES. So, one of my MISSUES is lacking self confidence. I don’t know the real reason behind it, but I just lack it. Probably when God was trying to bless everyone with self confidence, I was inside the my room, sleeping or probably in the kitchen eating my afternoon snack, thus now, I lack self confidence. Yey me! I lack confidence, now I have to build it. It is hindering me from doing things, from making much greater things. It seriously sucks! Now where do I start? Do I need a coach or something?

I think there is something really wrong with me. Urgh! THIS SUCKS! Seriously, what the hell is wrong with me???

Aside from confidence issues, I also have sleeping issues. Lately, I have only been sleeping for 5 hours max! I don’t even have work! I don’t know what the hell is wrong with my body clock, but I keep on sleeping at around 12 midnight or 1am and I keep on waking up at 8 in the morning. I wish my cousin’s wife isn’t so loud and obnoxious! This is really frustrating me, because I can feel that it is taking a toll on my body. My eyes are almost closing as I type this sentence. I wanna sleep already, but I feel like if I lay down in my bed, I wouldn’t be able to sleep right away. I would end up thinking about my “problems”, thus I become narcissistic before I go to sleep. I am terribly tired today. I lack sleep. I feel fatigued. I just wanna have a long and deep sleep, so that I can feel well rested before my “battle” tomorrow. Am I speaking in riddles?

Oh another thing, I’ve skipping meals lately. More often than I’m supposed to. I think there is something really wrong with me. Most of the time, I am not eating dinner. Or sometimes, I eat the most random thing for dinner. Last night (I almost slept on the streets because they locked our gate, thank God my brother’s still awake), I ate Pop Tarts for dinner! And today, I skipped dinner, AGAIN! I guess this is part where intervention is needed. This is getting bad, right?

(I want the NBA 2k11 Soundtrack! It sounds really awesome!)

[The taxi I was riding earlier while going home almost hit a girl. She's jaywalking!!! I thought the driver was gonna hit her. Dear you stupid jaywalking pedestrian, if you wanna commit suicide, please don't drag other people into it. It's not nice. I almost had a heart attack earlier because of your stupid actions. Next time, please follow the traffic rules. There is nothing wrong with going down a little further from where you're really supposed to go down, at least you're not gonna die. Walking is a great exercise. And lastly, I hate you!  )

{The Social Network is amazing!!! Props to Justin Timberlake for being such a good a**hole, oops! I meant actor.  And can I just say, Andrew Garfield is so freaking HOT! I am totally in love with him!!! He kinda looks like my schoolmate in college, but Andrew’s hotter. hehe}

Saving the World

I decided to help save the world. I am not using my AC for 4 days now! I know it's not that big, but hey it can still help right?

Let us continue saving the Earth. Let's stop global warming! :)

Chivalry is not so dead

When I transferred to Blogspot, I know I have to repost some of my posts here from my Wordpress. And I am doing it right now. :) I still don't know what to post here so I am transferring some of my old posts here. Way to go laziness!

Thank you for being so concerned. Your simple messages like, “go to rest”, “text me if you get home” never fails to make me smile. I know that I should not make a big deal out of it because we are friends, but sometimes I couldn’t help but wish that I have a boyfriend. I am not wishing that you become my boyfriend, I’m cool if I find someone like you. You are not the most chivalrous guy I have met, but you are so nice and caring. My heart melts when you do those things. When I feel your concern, I couldn’t help but smile. I don’t want to make a big deal out of it and I don’t want to even think of it. I wonder what you would say to me if no one opened our gate last Wednesday night, makes me wonder. I have a major, major crush on you before, but right now since you have become a good friend, I don’t think I have a crush on you anymore. Honestly, I see you as an inspiration. You inspire me to be a better person, you inspire me to be the best I can be. Not that my friends don’t do that, it’s just that with you it’s different. Probably because of the things you have done? I dunno. You always push me to do the things I wouldn’t normally do. You made me realize that I can do things and be good with it. I know and I feel that you want me to be the best, you want me to overcome my fears, you want me to be someone who is willing to take risks. Thank you for making me realize a lot of things. Honestly, I can’t put everything into words, I’m kind of confused on what to write here. But there is one thing I am sure of, I am thankful that you have become a friend of mine. Your concern towards me is something not many of my guy friends have shown. I know there is nothing more to and I know the real reason why you act like that towards me. I am not saying that what you are showing is just a facade.  But really, thank you for your concern and thank you for pushing me to be the best I can be.

If I would have a boyfriend, I want him to be like you, but I am not saying that I want it to be YOU. Well, sort of. hahaha But yeah. I want the qualities you have, to be my boyfriend’s qualities. Unfortunately, I still have to look for that guy. 

Welcome to Blogspot

Welcome me to Blogspot. This is my first post, but I am already ranting. Forgive me.


I am trying to fix this blog, but I can't seem to fix it. The picture won't show up in the header, and it is annoying me to death! I don't know what I should do because I have been doing exactly what the tutorial videos/blogs have instructed. But there is something really wrong with it. Rawr! Is it because I'm using Mac? How annoying can this get? I'll try using Windows tomorrow to see if it will work. Hopefully, it will because it's really pissing me off seeing my blog so, for the lack of better word, blank.

EDIT

I finally fixed it by using another theme. Oh well. :)

January 1, 2010 w/ the Velasco&#039;s

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